Writing?

Why is it that every time I feel like writing I always feel like I am mixing about five different ideas from books I have read? It always stops me from writing. I don't want to copy anyone's ideas. I want my own original idea. *sigh* I guess I'll start working on my memoir then. lol. That is my life so I can write about it and it will be original. lol. I have wanted to start that for a few years now. I think I even started a timeline once. But I don't have it anymore. (That's a good idea. A timeline. It'll be a quick reference to key points in my life, where they happened, key people involved. Yep. I'm gonna start working on that timeline today.) And I know my life so far is pretty average so it's not going to be the most interesting memoir. But I want to write it. And if anything, hopefully, my children and grandchildren find it interesting.

It's probably about the only thing I can concentrate on today. I am so tired today. I hate it. I ache all over and I just want to sleep until the middle of next week.

Saturday Songs: See No More

See No More

by Joe Jonas

It was Saturday when I got that call
Far away from feeling small
I know, I know, I know what the truth is, yeah
I tried to look away from what you did
Heartache became my friend

You walked away from me baby
I would've never done the same
You made me feel like our love was not real
You threw it all away, so ...

I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wake up thinkin, hopin
You'll get it right this time
'Cause you know that you’re so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can’t get away from you

It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seein is your picture
But I don't wanna see no more
But I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more

It was so easy to trust you baby
Guess I was so stupid baby
I didn't ever think that this would come
You’re runnin right to another one
You walked away from me baby
You threw it all away, so

I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wake up thinkin, hopin
You'll get it right this time
'Cause you know that you’re so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can’t get away from you

It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seein is your picture
But I don't wanna see no more
But I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more

I don't wanna see no more

I used to be afraid of letting go
The fragile part me, I’m here right now
I need you to set me free
I can see it in your eyes
That you won’t blame on me this time
No, never
And I want you back but I won’t look back, no

I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wake up thinkin, hopin
You'll get it right this time
'Cause you know that you’re so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can’t get away from you

It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seein is your picture
But I don't wanna see no more
But I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more

Well, I don't want to see no more

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I love this song. Every time I heard it on the radio when it first came out I always wondered who sang it but I never took the time to look it up. Then the DJ mentioned that Joe Jonas was the singer and it made me happy. I am glad he is kick starting his solo career with an awesome single. I hope the whole CD, of the same name, is just as good or better.

Official video

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Lyrics video

Movies and Sugar

This morning Lauren and I changed our walk to 9:30am, instead of 9am, so that we could drop by the library around 10am, when it opened. And I awoke to the doorbell at 10am. I feel really bad that I slept in and we weren't able to go this morning. At least Lauren got in a little walk coming to my house to see what was going on with me. She texted me but I was so out of it then. I even woke up at 8am when my alarm went off. I should have tried and stayed up. But I was so tired. I just snoozed my alarm and rolled over and went back to sleep. ... Lauren, if you're reading this, I really am very, very sorry. It's all my fault for not going to bed when the movie was over last night. Well, that and a certain something else. But yeah. All my fault. So sorry.

So on that note I was up at 10am but didn't start the day (shower, breakfast) until closer to 11am. I was checking email and Facebook while I fully awoke more. But then I got more ready for the day.

Ammon came to get me for the movie around 12:30pm. I thought that 'Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides' was very good. I still really like the first one but this fourth one was better then the second and third one. It was funny and had a good plot. It was great. I really liked the hints of romance in it. I am always in favor of a good Johnny Depp kiss scene. lol. I think he is great.

After the movie I looked for jobs. And then took a nap. I'm not feeling too hott today. But I know why. So that's nice. But really all I want is sleep, chocolate, and my life to sort itself out. I'm so done with this monotonous crap I get everyday. (And that would be the not so hott part of me talking but it is true.)

I think I am going to start writing, or at least outlining, an idea I have had for a very long time. I have the itch to write. lol. This should be interesting.

Snakes in my TV?

Today I didn't get to a lot of things I wanted to get done. But that's okay most of it was busy work anyway. I folded the rest of my laundry and straightened up my room. I listened to Josh Groban while I did that, starting with 'Chess'. I can't believe he'll be here next weekend. It doesn't really seem like that long ago since I saw him in London. But it was nine months ago. I am glad he is having fun on his tour. We missed Josh during his four year hiatus. lol.

We watched the second Lord Of The Rings tonight. Remember we have the extended editions. So this one was three hours and twenty minutes long. It has some great scenes that aren't in the theatrical versions. I really like the scenes that are in the extended versions. One of the scenes in the second movie shows Boromir and Faramir and their father. It helps you to understand why the two sons did what they did. They just want what is best for their people and to please their father. Boromir is a good person he is just misguided. I really love the scenes in the end of the third movie. The House of Healing is one of my favorite scenes in the whole trilogy. And if you only see the theatrical versions you would not know what I talking about.

Today I noticed that Satine's eyes are blue-ish grey. So she might be a pain tonight because she is ready to shed. But her body wasn't milky so I have a feeling she isn't going to shed tonight. But within the next day or two she'll shed and I'll have a soft, happy snake again. :) It's odd to see her eyes like that because they are normally dark. She can't really see. It's funny, but sad at the same time. I put a book on top the tank just in case she rubs up there she won't make they lid come off. Anyways, when I put it on top she coiled her head quickly underneath her body. I scared her. It made me laugh. But I was sorry I scared her.

Tomorrow Ammon and I are going to see the newest 'Pirates of the Caribbean' movie. What's the subtitle of it? Oh yeah. On Stranger Tides. I have heard that this movie is really good. Better then the other ones. I'm excited to go and see it.

Jar of Hearts [Almost]

Yesterday not much happened at all so I didn't feel the need to write about it. I did watch a couple of episodes of 'Stargate SG-1' and the newest episode of 'Torchwood'. But that was probably the biggest thing I did all day yesterday. Well, that and look for a job but I do that everyday.

Today, after going on a walk with Lauren, I was very tired. So I took a short nap and then got ready for the day. That nap was so nice. My blankets were soft and I slept for about an hour and a half. (Maybe two.) I blame the lightning last night for keeping me from falling asleep. I woke up for some reason and I could not really go back to sleep quickly. Every few minutes I would either get a flash of purple light coming in my window or a loud boom that startles my brain from it's almost asleep state. As much as I LOVE lightning and thunder it was quite annoying last night when all I wanted to do was go back to sleep.

I did my laundry today, since for some reason it never got done on Monday. I completely forgot about it until the day was gone and I didn't have time to do it anymore. I couldn't do it yesterday because that is Mom's laundry day. And she takes all day. But yeah. Mine got done today. I even folded it all and put it away. Sometimes that doesn't get done for a while. lol. It's the curse of putting it in my bedroom. When I was in my apartment I would leave it in the front room and that way I would see it and remember to fold. And I did fold it while I watched tv or something. Sometimes I would fold it in the middle of the night when I was watching tennis. When it's in my room I don't see therefore I don't feel the need to fold it because I'm the only person that really goes in there.

I painted some lids today as well. But you really don't care about random lids, do you? Well, tough. I care. And it's my blog. lol. I recycle jars and use them for other things. And to make them more uniform I paint the lids white. That way the look smart and you can't tell the bottle was a pickle jar or a sauce jar. I really like using those Nalley pickle jars that are really big. It's fun to have such a large jar to put things in. (Although getting the jar, mostly the lid, to not smell like pickles takes a while. lol.) I like that the pickle jars and the sauce jars are the same height. But I do have some smaller jars too. One of them is perfect for my bobby pins and hair ties. It fits in the bathroom cabinet nicely too.

I finalized some Saturday Songs posts and scheduled them. I need to write a few more tomorrow. That way I have a good head start on them all. I have to look at my list of songs that I wanted to write about and pick a few of them.

Tonight, after dinner, I watched last night's 'White Collar' episode. This season is really, really good. It's sexy and intense. And you have no idea if Neal is going to get away with billions of dollars worth of artwork. I'll have to get the other seasons and see if they are all this good. This season is the first one I have really watched. :) It's a great show. The two leads (Matt Bomer and Tim DeKay) are phenomenal actors. They are gorgeous and work well together.

Lambert the Sheepish Lion

You can thank my little brother, Brian, for getting me onto this video. lol. But it is cute. Watch it. ... Now. ...

Today

Last night the internet wasn't working when I wanted it too. Oh well. It works today and that's all the really matters. (It's mush easy to look for jobs from the comfort of my own home and not the library.)

This morning's walk was nice. The weather was perfect for it. Cloudy and overcast and few misty rain drops. At 10:30am when I got home it was about 70°F (21°C) but it didn't feel that hot at all because of the cloud cover.

I was looking at my blog reader and specifically at a sewing one that I really like. She had pictures of her blocks that she is doing for a summer sampler quilt along. And after I look at them more I kind of want to do that quilt. There are many different techniques in the sample quilt, including paper piecing a few of them. And since I have a paper piece quilt that all around harder then these blocks I think I'll do this quilt before that quilt. :) Someday I'll have money for fabric. Then I can sew some of these quilt ideas.

Tonight for FHE we went swimming and hung out with the whole stake. I wasn't really planning on swimming because, to be honest, I'm not that comfortable in water. I can't touch the ground most of the time because I'm only just over 5 feet. And I always feel like my heart is going to pound out of my my body near the end of hanging out in a pool. But I brought my swim suit just in case. I found Lauren and Ammon so I decided I'll be okay in the pool. I had fun. We just swam/walked around and talked most of the time. It seems like there weren't a lot of people there but at the same time there was. They had popsicles for the food. Which was kind of lame. When they say food I think hot dogs and chips not dessert and soda pop. (Mmm. Soda. Great. Now I want one. Maybe I'll get one after I shower.)

Tomorrow Mom and I need to go return some bundles of shingles. And then I don't really have anything planned. I need to fold my laundry and I should clean my room. But that's about it. Maybe I'll see if I can focus on a play tomorrow.

Right now. I'm going to go rinse off this pool water smell and then get a soda. Maybe make some popcorn and watch a short-ish movie. It is 10 o'clock, after all.